Friday, September 26, 2008
Hey.. it 4.50am n im sitting here typing my blog. Something tat NEVER happen in my life. Im actually waiting 4 subuh n since i got nothin 2 do.. so here i am typing my heart out.
im feeling down.. n hearing the sad raya songs makes it worst! Its as if i was the one who went thru it all. I hate this!! Im sori u had 2 went thru it 2day.. ur special day...
Guess wat, i totally 4got my BF b'day!! i know i know... i was shocked myself. Wat was i thinkin. I mean this year he even came to my so called b'day bash n here i am not remembering his b'day n realising it only when he said it 2 my face!! haiz...
If we did not meet last nite i wld have not remembered anything. Anyway, we had a chat at starbuck last nite n we got carried away till midnite. I dont know wat 2 feel 4 him. I dont know if i shld b happy or sad. Actually our conversation did not stop when we decide 2 go home coz it continue over the phone till juz abt 45 mins ago.
Luckily he didnt cry or anything like tat coz i wldnt know how 2 react. But i felt tat it was juz a strong front he's been putting up coz deep inside im sure it hurts. For the very first time i felt tat im not sure how 2 comfort someone coz throughout the conversation i still kept thinkin how the hell did i 4get.
But im glad i manage 2 get his mind off the situation coz we were talking crap most of the time n i hope i manage 2 take him away from the hurt he went thru even for juz that short moment. Had we been somewhere else, may b its not him but i'll b the 1crying my heart out 2 c him in that state.
Sometimes i ask myself wat wld be the outcome had we decide to take a different route. Will we get something better? things tat we had always wanted? Greater achievements.. or the best possible things that cld happen in our life?! But then again, if we r doin ok now, nt having difficulties, enjoyin watever tats happening around us... y wont we juz b contented wif wat we have? Y shld we even bother to tink abt the outcome had we choose a different path. Eventhough how much we said that we r contented, there's still a tiny thing at the back of our head pondering on the other outcome. Funny isnt it.
But if the outcome of the path we choose seems 2 b wrong does tat mean we made the wrong choice? I personally felt that the decision we made at tat point was never wrong.. its juz how we react when we realise tat it doesnt go our way. Y cant we juz continue our journey and try to get our way out of it rather than turn back to tat junction n take the other route coz you never know tat it might juz be as bad.
Im sori i 4got.. n i felt sori 4 wat happened. Hope u'll b ok.
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